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2002-04-07 - 5:54 p.m. I'd make a bunch of resolutions about how I'm going to change my life so that I don't end up wasting any more time ever again... but I'd only break them. I need something to change out there as well as in here, if that makes sense. I think I really, really need to move out of home. This is not a small or a petty desire, and however expensive it may be, the price will be worth it. I'm sure the price will be worth it. It's not that expensive. It shouldn't be. But, do I want to move somewhere in Sydney, or to Katoomba? Katoomba is cheaper and nicer but... it's a long way to anything in Sydney. I can just imagine the potential to become super antisocial... argh. - Boring boring boring! I keep harping on the same stuff! What keeps pulling me back to these same questions? Why do I never look under the surface? What am I afraid of? - I've always been antisocial. Sort of. In my last year at high school, it changed, because I was in a different environment and... and I was willing to take risks. I was willing to make a fool of myself. That's what's missing now, I think - I feel like I know what will happen, so I don't hope, I don't gamble, I don't reach out for possibilities. A world of pure certainty would be hell, regardless of what those certainties were. - "We oughtta send officer Joe Strange To some Australian mountain range So we all can do The ring-a-round-the-rosy rag" - Arlo Guthrie
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