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2002-03-02 - 1:24 a.m. I'm terrified that maybe the reason I've been so depressed and lethargic lately has been that I'm relapsing with glandular fever again. Anything but that! Just in case, I'm going to try and be a bit healthier for a little while... less junkfood, more vitamins, and going to bed at a reasonable time. Mind you, the fact that I'm writing this at 1.30am doesn't bode well for that last one. - I hate being depressed because on the one hand I feel like, if I just keep it all in and stay by myself, I am just going to sink deeper and deeper into it, but on the other hand, I hate being around other people because it is depressing for them and I feel like a burden on them, and I absolutely hate that thought. Even if it's not true, and it's just paranoia... I can't stand the idea. Yeah, I know, just arrogance. Sometimes they are a burden on me, but I don't mind, because they're my friends and I love them. Why should I imagine that I'm the only one who isn't allowed to be a burden from time to time? Still, it's hard to take... - "I'm always hoping For a red-letter day" - Pet Shop Boys
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